Mum guilt

I broke down, I cried,

You were almost off to sleep.

I couldn’t help it as I watched you,

The guilt took over me.

It was a rough day.

A tough few weeks,

For you and I,

With little sleep.

I raised my voice

Pleading for you to nap.

Feeling instantly ashamed,

I hung my head in my lap.

You’re too little to understand,

That’s too much for you to know.

Nor do you need to, I’m here,

To be your haven and your home.

We got through it.

You barely blinked,

While I was guilt ridden

and on the brink.

It killed me, I was gutted,

‘no sleep’ got the better of me,

But please know mummy is human,

I guess this is what it means to be.

The night came, it was bedtime,

The tears had overcome me.

I let you down today, my darling,

I hope you can forgive me?

I apologised sincerely and

You were happier in my arms.

I hope you felt my love,

As you laid there, safe from harm.

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Poem by Renée Melizza

Find more musings and follow Renée on Instagram at @dear_darling_xo